hello little children. it's been a while so here's what i got....

work is for squares. i hate having a full time job. benefit is a nice company, but everyone keeps expecting me to make wine out of water... but they aren't giving me the water =/

speaking of wine... I'M 21!!!! HOLL-A!

my birthday was mucho fab. spent it with some awesome cats including some family, high school friends, chrissy love, and last, but not least, tyler.

which brings me to my next point, but back, literally [you know what i mean]. tyler and i are going for another try. i think we're at 3.5. i'm not sure. but it's 100% amazing. We make mixed cd's for each other every month. it's a-fucking-dorable.

his car broke last week. it's costing him his whole scotland account to fix =/ boooooo. i wish i was rich. speaking of cars and lack of money... i got another speeding ticket. 4 points. i can't afford insurance, so i am getting dropped from my mom. which means i won't be driving for a while...

you don't really need a car out here in jc, and i am really trying to pay off my 4 grand in debt. i just hope i can leave eventually.

that's about all i got for you now. stay tuned for my next episode.

up-to-date.... play-by-play... pull up a chair. grab a beverage. no ice? ok sorry... read.

helllllllo little children friends. ok so here's what i got you for
1st of all school is kicking my ass as usual. online classes are probably the worst things ever created. so much work so little time. idk what i am going to do after i graduate ccm (journalism major). i am either thinking a. montclair for my graphic design degree or maybe go to school and enroll in a program to be a wedding planner. i know that might sound lame to some people but i think i'd be fun.
2nd of all work is really fun. i like working at a cosmetics counter. i am a little low on my sales but everything is really organized at my counter. i've made some pretty cool friends too. dave is awesome. he works at the mac counter and he ripped his pants the other day when i was trying to make him dance. i seriously almost died laughing. good times.
mama and tony are getting married in feb! yay! mama is so0o0o happy. she deserves to be. she was diagnosed with skin cancer =(. i'd never let her know how scared i am. she is so brave and i am so proud of her for being such a strong woman. i really love her to death and i am so happy that she met tony. you should see them together. it's adorable. i think dave is going to be my date for the wedding. chrissy and sean are coming too. sean is going to be the photographer. it's going to be fun.
i love chrissy to death. she is still my best friend and i know she always will be. we see each other every friday and it's all nice on ice alright.
i met a new boy =x. his name is chris. he is really into music. he makes me smile. it's nice. nothing serious. just smiles.

and last but not least i want the apple iphone for christmas.

how is everyone else?

miss you all.

xoxo

i need to stop trusting people so easy.

i'm kinda lonely here in jc now.

macy*s is fun though.

so far...

i need:
1. some friends here in jc
2. a purpose or hobby
3. a career goal

any suggestions?

i'm bored & you probably don't care either way.

1. How old will you be in five years?
25

2. Who will you spend at least two hours with today?
i spent two hrs with mama

3. How tall are you?
5'8"

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
starting work at macy's! yay!

5. What's the last movie you saw in theaters?
hot.rod.
it's.bad.


6. Who was the last person you called?
tony mama's bf.

7. Who was the last person to call you?
my mama

8. What was the last text message you received?
"idk. last time he called me he just talked about ups and wanted to chill" (chrissy talking about mex)

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
idk i never check my voicemails. maybe carey?

10. Would you rather call or text?
text. it's less personal but i don't have to think when i text

11. Are you going to give out your cell number here?
i think everyone that know's about my lj has my #

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
=x divorced... i guess? idk what to call it.

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
like, 2 minutes ago.

14. When is the last time you saw your dad?
like, 10 years ago.

15. Have you ever been to a concert?
yesum. modest take 7 (i think) in a month! weeee!

16. What are you wearing right now?
shorts and a tank top

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
anywhere with people that make me happy

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
anywhere with people that piss me off

20. Africa-New Zealand-Japan?
none of the above. i want to go to france or canada. that's it.

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
i have no idea where i'll be in an hour so idk about 10 years

22. Do you tan or burn?
a little bit of both i guess

23. What did you fear as a child?
bridges... still hate them

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
the women at macy's today. they were really nice and funny.

25. How many TV's do you have in your house?
3

26. How big is your bed?
full

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
laptop

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with...

29. What color are your sheets?
white with black polka dots!

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2

31. what is your favorite season?
fall

32. What do you like about fall?
the colors/ weather/ argyle sweaters (wow that rhymes) / halloween

33. What do you like about winter?
idk my birthday i guess and new years is fun too. oh ya and christmas

34. What do you like about the summer?
the beach

35. What do you like about spring?
flowers

36. How many states have you lived in?
2

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
ugh, 3 in flordia, nutley, kearney, jefferson (hopatcong & oakridge), budd lake, & now jersey city

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
bare feet but i love shoes. weird right?

39. Are you a social person?
yesum

40. What was the last thing you ate?
grilled cheese yum yum

41. What are your plans for tonight?
idk yet. probably seacacus or whateve

42. What are you doing tomoorrow?
idk yet.

43. What was the last fast food you ate?
wendy's. banging.

44. Who was the last person you im'd?
joe prtj.

45. What instant messenger service do you use?
aim for mac

46. How is your hair currently?
fine thanks for asking.

47. Are you wearing shoes?
negative.

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
like 2ish.

49. What do you drink in the morning?
capri suns.

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
the left.

53. Do you like to cuddle?
sometimes. not when i am trying to sleep.

55. Favorite TV show?
SATC

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
hahahaha... you said eat out.... =x

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
my mama!

59. Do you want kids?
maybe... idk.

60. Have you ever been to a live television show taping?
nope.

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
when i got my plastic surgery.

62. Have you ever ridden in a fire truck?
i don't think so? i guess that's something i would remember.

63. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
ocean i think.

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
window.

65. Do you know how to drive a stick?
cha cabby is stick.

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
shoes & clothes.

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
my earings and belly button ring.

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
i don't like stuffed animals.

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
aye bay bay

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
hell yeah i got a fern gully shirt.

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
candle.

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
yes.

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
closed -

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
a bear. i could take him.

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
nope.

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
hahah yes.

83. Have you ever ran out of gas in the car?
nope.

84. What is your usual bedtime?
idk it changes.

85. What was the last book you read?
hp 7. i cried.

86. Do you read the newspaper?
negative.

87. Do you read any magazines?
cosmo, glamour, & vouge.

89. What do you fear most?
snakes & bridges that go over water.

90. Do you dance in the car?
hell ya.

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
KROCK. IT'S BACK BITCH!

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
my dad and aunt.

95. What is your favorite board game?
idk. thats a good question.

96. What time is it?
8:29pm

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
i liked sarah martin from chem. & howey p rocked too. even though i didn't learn anything from either of them.

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
what? camp? nooo.

100. Who was the last person to give you butterflies?
he knows.

Yoooo cats. jersey city is so freakin frackin crazy.
i don't have a job which is the werst ever cause i'm super broke. oh well.
there are crazy spanish block parties pretty much every other week. insane.
i'm a little bummed about having to drive up to ccm for another year of schooling, but idk what's going on with my future.
my mom doesn't have cancer! she had to get surgery... but all of her tests came back negative. mucho mucho good news.
and last but not least...
i have a new bf. his name is carey and he fucking rocks.

are we all masochists or is it just a coincidence?

moved to jersey city. my street sucks but thumbs up to the apartment itself and being so close to manhattan. i've met up with my first bf ever from 3rd grade and he's a pretty cool cat now. very smart. it wasn't the school system though, unless it just didn't work for me. i used to cheat off him on my spelling tests which is why i can't spell now, and he remembers that. funny. i have some very good friends right now which is awesome. zac and bryan kwaz are very good to talk to. i recommend their company highly. i'm still trying to find my niche. changed my major again. i am very fickle. at least i can admit it. i don't know why i am using so many periods. is it just me? well there was a question mark to change it up. harry potta movie in a few days. excited? you bet i am.

yo. it's been a while i knowww but i've been busy so bite me.
ok well i finally got my cabrio =). it's pretty much my favorite thing in the whole world. black, black top, black leather interior, and it's stick! =) ya that's right i am driving a manual car and it's so0o0o much fun. i stall pretty much at least once a day, but whateve. i really have to thank chrissy, brian, and michael for teaching me how to drive stick in the first place.
the bad news is as i was driving home from the dealership (in the honda) and i got pulled over for tailgating. bullshit, but none the less it was a five point ticket. ugh i am going to have to pay $500-$800 to get rid of 3 points, and then i am going to have to pay $100 to take a driving class to get rid of the other 2. that def. sucked but i'm not surprised.
one of my credit cards is completely paid off! awesome. now i just have to work on the other one... yeah right...
farmingdale is stressing me out because they won't freaking fracking send me any of the papers i need but i am calling them and being all responsible to take care of it. today katy leonard was trying to talk me out of going there because it's going to cost so much money in the long run. i understand where she is coming from, but it's my dream school, so i guess i will learn from my mistakes when i pay my student loans back.
i've been single now for, idk, maybe like two months? tyler and i didn't work out and even though it hurt and was drama packed i realize i am better off now. he has said some pretty shitty things to me but i think we are doing ok on the whole friend level thing. i have been hanging out with hyde a lot lately and i love it. he is so smart and witty which people wouldn't really expect based on his sterotype, but i guess that's what sterotypes are for in the first place, to be proved wrong. i don't know what's going to happen between us but i guess we'll see all in good time.
my summer class is superlame. i'm taking Psych and i just want it to be over already.
i am stressed about moving. i don't want to be any further away from chrissy than i already am, but i guess there is nothing i can do about that. i hope i can find a job quickly in jersey city, i just need to wash the pink dye out of my hair haha.
me and kathy have been getting along really well lately too. it's nice having a sister that i enjoy talking too. it took long enough.
and last but not least, i am finally getting these damn dots off my face the end of june. it's gonna cost $600 bucks but it's totally worth it. good riddance.
on a side note, it's freezing here at bbf. damn people working out need to be cold. i am going to miss this job.

weeeee i got accepted to farmingdale!
thank you to everyone for your support.
my friends rock =)

my knee hurts from ballet.
my foot hurts from stepping on a hairbrush.
and
my heart hurts from the breakup.

true.